Wednesday, January 26, 2005
It's my off day yet again today. Feels wierd to be able to escape from work... It feels even more wierd when I found myself at the workplace a few hours after I woke up :)
Had a lunch date with 'her' today :) Everything went so well at 'Sushi Tei'. Be it just an hour of lunch with her but it's more than enough to make my day. 'She' made me look at things with a different light today. I felt blissed, blessed, hopeful. In fact all these what I'm typing now is an understatement. The feeling and the drive which kept me going today is simply beyond words.

But to think this is more like a farewell lunch made me feel so cold... What I've done for the past few months is definitely not enough to strike an lasting impression in her I guess. Afterall I've been hot and cold towards her. But who could really understands me? I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed. I've feelings for her but I dunno how she even feels for me. I really like her so much. I may just laugh it off as a crush months ago. But here again I'm facing this question months later. I really like her. I really like her so much. I did try to pretend. I can try to forget. But it's really driving me mad.

As I really like her so much.