Friday, April 22, 2005
First of all, I would like to say, God, you are real, you've been hearing me all these while, for that, I thank you. You indeed moved me when I received money when I least expected it... just in the nick of time before I resort to borrow from the people around me again. Secondly, I would like to thank you for bestowing your love and kindness upon Noraini as well. Praise Lord that she had already went for both the interviews already. I've so much faith that I've been telling her she'll bound to get the job even before she went for the first interview the day before! What's more she can't accomplish with you, God, on her side? All these wouldn't be possible if I did stray back to my old habits of gambling for the past weeks. And aren't I'm glad that I've stood firm upon my decision not to place any bet in the darkest of hours, almost everynight.

It's my off day today. Woke up much earlier than expected, just, to give her morning calls and to meet her after her interview. Everything went smoothly as expected(like what I say, what else could have happened with God on her side?). Heard that she should be starting work as soon as 3rd of May in two weeks time. Should I be glad or what? Afterall I've done and pathed everything out for her. The rest is up to her now. Lord, bless her with the best for her future endeavours at her new workplace, yah?

Went back Paragon in the evening. People been saying upfront that I'm indeed dumb enough to land myself there on my off day. But how I wish, she would believe she's the only reason I went back there for. Not for my department, not for my colleagues or promotors, but perhaps a glimpse of her at the workplace is better than having none.

Oh yah, didn't I quarrelled with two of my closest money grubbing friends today? As a matter of fact, nearly fought with one of them too! Idiots. Bastards. Been thinking I'm a money tree or what. Fancied me to give them treats? Not that I'm a miserable lot. But they really doesn't worth it. Come on, let's face it. What pity should I shower on a duo whom refused to find jobs but just squander away their money on arcade games and soccer bettings? Not that I'm in a better state anyway. But at least, I'm broke for a better and worthy cause. Here I am, trying means to feed myself almost everyday, and there they are, trying to eat me off on the other end. Bastards. Jokers. Guess I ought to minimize contacts with them in future. Every minute spent with them is a minute of my life being wasted. Just my two cents.

Funny.

Sitting down here alone in the dark makes me feel so cold.