Friday, April 15, 2005
On the verge of opening my flood gates as I'm typing these. No doubt that it might be a fact that I'm suffering the ill effects of taking too much hard liquor for the past nights which've probably even caused a big hole in me. Should I be happy, or should I be sad? I don't know... but visiting the toilet every now and then drains me both physically and emotionally. And I hate the idea of being reduced back to rags and bones. Been taking charcoal pills and covered my belly button already. But the pain is still there. Perhaps stuffing a cork into my belly button will helps? Least it will prevent the air from entering via it. So painful oh. (>.<) And that's really an understatement.

Couldn't sleep a wink or faint since last night. Despite running a fever and giving myself a few tight slaps doesn't help in knocking myself into unconciousness either. Nevertheless, been spending most of my time listening to music, moaning and weeping in the dark instead.

Had a relatively bad start of a typical morning today. Nearly drove me to the brink of madness upon realising that I've lost my easi-link card(of which I've topped up $20 a night ago!). All the slogging at work doesn't make my day any better either. The only sense of satisfaction would perhaps come from the fact that I've managed to distribute all the Total Mens' commissions, setting up two new promotional areas, all in just one day!(minus two visits to the toilet of cos) Couldn't have made it if I didn't sacrificed my tea breaks and thirty minutes of my personal lunch break. What a diligent worker I am, yeah?

Managed to wait and accompanied Noraini to the bus stop after work too. Felt so awkward to get sound by her to confessed that I'm the one whom approached Charmaine and Lily Sidi to recommend her for the admin post. Afterall that's the truth which she's been wanting to hear and I admit I'm a bad liar... so aren't I'm relieved to pour out everything to her? ;) Afterall, I'll definitely be ten folds much saddened than others by the fact that she will leave Paragon if she does get selected by the post. But at least she'll be leaving for a greater cause and for her better good, so why not? Wouldn't appreciate the fact of binding this poor thing to the customer service even though she's so well liked by everyone here. Both our lives will change, which is now a certainty if she leaves.

Afterall, one must move out from our comfort zones in order to move on with live. That's how we conquer, evolve and become better.

What he or she can do, you could do just as well, if not, better.

That's, with love, she've imbued in me.

And that's how I gonna live on.