Monday, May 09, 2005
I need a jab of tranquilizer right now. Afterall I could feel my blood pressure already risen beyond the point of control. My head is too full of blood till I could die any moment right now. I want to die. But I can't die. I badly need a drink. But I can't drink. Read on to see why. I need someone to confide in right now. I found none.

Alright it's 3 hours since I updated the above paragraph. Just came back from the clinic with my mum. Hah. Did manage to sneak and drown down 500ml of Barons in 29 seconds as temporary tranquilizer. It's working fine right now. Least my thoughts is diversed and my nerves are all numb. Shoik. It's an understatement. Hah.

Oh yah lets get on to whatever the fiak happened to me today. Nothing much actually haha :) Just that I'm fully packed right from 9.30 to 6.15pm that is. Minus my lunch hour that is.Had to settle 252 pieces of garbage which my buyer ordered for my Mens' department. Nevertheless had to settle and follow a suit of customers' complaints as well. Haha. All these meant nothing. Afterall I'm already a workaholic. It's one of the few times I had to mobilize the whole Mens' department to help me to handle the chores like clearing up promotion areas and replenishment of stocks(I can't possibly do it alone!). All grumbled a little cept for one whom actually challenged me to a fight! Who else than our infamous Dino? LOL. For your info I already given him lotsa mutha fudging face already. Only to ask that freaking mutt to finish tagging the wagons of document bags. WTF is his problem? I don't know. Couldn't be his wife pmsing cos she's expecting. Is it that hard? Anyone's grandfather could do the chore of his if he can't. But nevertheless, though the sight of me irks me as much as I irks him, there's nothing our manager could do, cept ask me to tolerate him. Afterall he's a giant superstar who can hit sales thru unscrulptous means. And me? A meek supervisor who can perform all form of tasks except attaining high sales target. Wages aside, will Metro rather lose him or me, I don't know.

She probably out to spite me to tell me she might be with that dumbass car dealer I don't know. My world fall to bits and pieces soon after that anyway. Afterall she's all that matters nowadays. No one could kill my spirit as much as she do. If only she knows. Then again. Why should she care? She don't even know where I'm placed anyway. I'm afterall, lingering to hope, none. Least that's what she's giving me anyway, none.

Though my visions is blurred with all these beer and vodka, but by grace of God, I still managed to update my blog. I can't drop down dead or asleep yet. Afterall I ought to represent Metro in the Service Audit tomorrow. Doing last minute revision bout Metro's goals, strategies right now. How much I could remember, I don't know. Least I know all these indulgence in booze and loud music(earpiece) will help a little than none. Those will keep me awake at least. No? Oh yah. Have to wake my mum up to take her fever receding pills a couple hours later too. Talking bout life suck, she's having a high fever out of the blue today too. Else why would I be accompanying her to the doctor 3 hours ago?

Afterall I love today.

And I bet my left nut I will love even what God or the Devil has in plan for me tomorrow.