Thursday, May 05, 2005
Much has happened since the last update. Went for root canal treatment yesterday... guess what? I'm 700 hundred dollars poorer and that also mean putting me a couple hundreds in red. I'm not rich I mind you. Forced to part with my right upper molar a year ago. I can't possibly part with my left one yah? Whatever am I gonna use to chew on if I were to lose that only one too? Going for my second treatment next wednesday. Really hope this root canal treatment will be a success, if not, it will all just end up a tooth extraction.

Went all the way back to have lunch with 'her' yesterday. It's her first day at work at card center afterall ;) That's the least I could do to make her feel least out of place and better yah? Imagine your first day at work and you have to eat all alone during your meal break. Poor thingy wouldn't be it? I've been through all these before so I know. Went back Fajar just to have my root canal thereafter. And came back to Paragon in the evening again to have dinner and coffee bean action with Charmaine, Wendy and her. What a packed schedule yeah? Fancy me travelling through and fro from my house to townarea for the whole of yesterday ;) Oh yah. Surprised her(did I?) by buying her a very cute mug too. Least she now has a mug in the office which she could call her very own ;) Spent extra efforts in having it wrapping it up in wrappers, ribbons and such. Guess both of us just love surprises yah? :)

Bad day for me today. Kinda lost touch with my department after 3 days of absence from it. Stranded and lost in the midst of the crowd. Lol. And after half a day of work I fall sick! It's that serious! It seems a plaguelord has just visited me. I felt nauseous, cold and feverish. Might just jolly be something which I took or bad weather perhaps? Afterall, I felt weak abandoned and lost, without her around.

Actually harbored hopes of catching a glimpse of her when I walk past the Customer Service counter today. Lol? Moron yeah? Could actually hallucinate and see her back, doing gift wrapping. Then again. It's all just not possible. All these visions should just go away I guess. Life has to go on. She has moved on. She will never be there anymore. Back to my days where I should just give a damn to the people around me. Gone will be the warmth in me. Everyone could sense the change in me today. I'm afterall now a changed person. The bitterness in me is far too much to contain. Working at Metro Paragon could never be the same again. I don't look forward to Customer Service duties anymore. In fact, I'm beginning to dread that place yet again. Then again, I've promised her to take care of Wendy whenever possible. Till then I will just fulfill that pact with her I guess. I have to. I'm more than willing to.

Alright the painkillers are working.

Time to sleep.