Sunday, June 26, 2005
Good morning... Didn't expect to log on online and update my blog this early on a quiet Sunday morning. Had a very disturbing sleep involving her oh. Could actually witness myself breaking into tears inside my dreams. Is this a glimpse into the future? If so, Lord, I will do what I could to prevent it as it's definitely not the ending I wanna end the chapter between us with.

Alright. In case whoever is reading these don't get it. It's my off day today, which actually explains I'm all but ready to write a long blog. Be chilling with probably just one of my friend later. A movie? Arcade? Even probably a visit to the Singapore Expo? Yawn. Boring. But that's just me.

As promised, besides snipets into my daily life, here I will gave thanks to a few people whom I'm indebted to. Not to mention how much they contributed to the upbringing and shaping of me through these 25 years. Sorry if all these sounds probably more like writing my own will. At last, but I do not care.

Mum, thanks for the tears of joy you've probably shed for me when you brought me into this world. Not performing my filial piety at times, I'm sorry for the tears that ran down the sides of your face when I broke you heart at times too. No one else came close to how much I am indebted to you. For that I promise I will take care of you and keep you sheltered from now on. This is, all but a promise I've made solely to you.
"Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all." - Proverbs 31:29

Dad, though you may had already left this world more than a decade ago, 14 years to be exact, fond memories of you still remains. Though I did actually dislike you in fits of anger so much when you are very much still alive, but on second thoughts, which father don't beat their own sons when they are as rebellious and naughty as me? Sweet memories of us collecting the World Cup 1990 stickers still remains as much as like yesterday. Even sweeter memory of you backing me up just when I'm bullied back to my early primary school days. You still live in my heart as in today, and tomorrow. That is why I've made and I am still keeping to my oath which I've made to you, that is not to be tainted by a cigarette of smoke.

Sarah, even though I do really hate you to the core at times for tearing up the family and launching the plight mother and me in right now. But as the eldest in the family. I do still heed and seek your advisory at times too. And looking at the deeper sh*t you are in when compared to us, I guess there's not much hatred left in me. Perhaps, and perhaps, just pure disappointment. And I really hope you will not drag Amy down with you, judging from the loans she took on your behalf. I do believe in karma. Don't you?

On second thoughts, though I may have lead a life of poverty. But aren't me glad that I'm rich in memories.

These pretty sums up what I could divulge today. Wanna know if I will mention your name in my subsequent blogs? Stay tuned...

Have a God blessed Sunday, yah?