Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Alright... been more than two days since I came back from my uncle's funeral wake. How time flies eh? Nearly a week been passed since my last update. Learnt how unpredictable and cruel life could be. My uncle been slogging for all his life. No matter how much respectable he could be(as I've witnessed from the funeral), all these meant nothing after succumbing to a heart attack. It's all gone. Gone is his promise to his eldest son that he'll be attending his graduation ceremony in the US this year end. FYI, he's yet to see his eldest son for four whole years already. He could never fulfilled it now. His sons couldn't see him cept two days after he passed away.(took 2 days of flight to get both of them back to Malaysia from US). How worse could this senario be? The tears my mum shed before his coffin really bleeds my heart. Afterall, he's one of my mum closest younger brother. Me? I was all quiet through this ordeal. I'm just simply at a lost for words. I tried to cry but I can't. Not that I don't love him. I'm truly sadden by the loss of this uncle. It's really awful to be deprived from the rights to cry when you really want to, you know?

Sent her home by cab a couple hours ago. She's probably asleep by now. She have to. Afterall she's running a fever and having a relatively awful sore throat out of the blues. Probably accompanying her to the doctor as early as tomorrow morning... which will be just a couple of hours from now. God, I'm so worried... Felt so useless that there's nothing much I could do or contribute to share her agony. I've done all I could for now. God, bless her, pretty please?

Pretty touched that my department collected some 'White Gold' for my uncle today. In fact, they donated days ago. Just that they only get to pass to me today. Humph... gonna find a way to despatch the cash to my cousins yah. It's a pretty neat sum... and hope they appreciate the token and affection my colleagues showering upon them. God bless each of these selfless people yah?

In the name of Lord Jesus, I prayed,

Amen.