Friday, August 19, 2005
Hell yeah. I'm not dead, yet :)
Did cross my mind to shut this blog down for good... who actually reads this lot webspace anyway? That explained why I failed to post any blog for the past nineteen days.

Embarked on my slow fairytale ride since... God, I really appreciate the new life I'm leading now... and no... I can't divulge whatever life I'm leading now anyway :)

Am I truly happy? No doubt, it would be a genuine yes. But as with happy days, I ought to toil through a couple of breathless and mind torturing nights too. Like... now? Lol don't worry bout it, I'm not drinking like what I used to or should. No money suck. I'm deprived from having the rights to buy myself a few drinks to nullify the shitnitz feelings within me. Man. I ought to admit I really feel so god damned awful. The sour and bitterness within me is far too much for me to contain.

How time flies. To think I've actually sold thirteen months of my youth to Metro without me knowing it. I've slogged like hell and given all I could to keep Mens' Department in great shape. Will my hard work will ever be recognized? The chances are probably not, with me shouldering some of the blame and my manager claiming the credit instead. I'm no puss or boot licker. Which is a bad thing and probably will hinder my promotion to retail executive as a whole. How I wish everything I've done will not go unnoticed... as it's the only step to get a pay increment or get promoted next year.

It's the Fifteen day of the Chinese lunar month again. It's a relatively rare occasion in my opinion as it's one of the only times all my family members gather at my house to pay respect to my late father. How time flies eh(again), my father is all gone for fourteen years... lol whenever I close my eyes it would seems just like... yesterday or the week before that he passed away? Sometimes I really ponders whats exactly the point of having siblings or a family who doesn't really care for you? Money is all on their mind. Not me. And God... trust me, they making me sick. They are, making my house, a sickening place to return to after each day.

My future seems bleak with lotsa uncertainties. I don't really care what the hell the rest of the world see me as anymore.

Afterall, whatever in life will be, will be.
I'm in no ground to press it.