Thursday, March 09, 2006
Alright. First of all I had to admit that I don't have the zeal to update this pathetic lot of space that often anymore. Secondly, I didn't update this page via handphone is that, I lost my handphone, yeah the goddamned one month old Samsung D500C a day after Valentine day. Dumb of me eh? F*ck it. Who else could I blame? SBS transit? Blah. I have only myself to blame! Hah! I'm just being reckless! And unlucky to have that f*cking phone to slip out of my clown pockets!

I feel so god damned bitter that I'm just restraining myself from punching right at this LCD screen as I'm typing these. There's just too much bitterness and damnation within me.

My dear actually have doubts bout me lately. How could I ever not be faithful to her? Haven't I express and done enough to reassure of my love for her time to time? Over the months she kept telling me I don't really love her that much anymore. That's really disturbing and so much hurt packaged with those words. That's not true. As a matter of fact, a grotesque person like me should be the one who feel insecured. Her suitors are still in the queue. They are still in contact with her. They are just waiting for the right moment to spring upon her. With her school reopening in less than 2 weeks from now, her suitors will just get more and more. Will she ever get bored of me? Will she leave me? People been saying time to time I'm not good enough for her, and a person like me should not be loved.

God, tell me what I should do.

I'm trying not to think. I've drank. I've sleep. I've cried. And I did bleed.

I'm going crazy.